Tom broke up with me.  I am in complete shock.  I thought we were doing good.  Everyone cept saying how jealous they were of our relationship.  Two more days would have been 2 months.  He said he wasnt ready for a serious relationship.  I said i understood, but I'm not sure if I really do.  I should have asked more questions, but I had to say as little as possible because I didnt want him to hear how hard I was crying.  I feel like I'm going to throw up.  My mouth keeps going dry, but my face stays soaked with tears.  I love him so much.  I dont think he realizes just how much he means to me.  I know I've already lost him for now, but I dont want to lose him forever.  How do I prevent it?  I waited all day for tonight to come cuz I figured he'd get to call me while his aunt & uncle were sleeping.  When he called, hearing his voice made me cry harder. And now Margos playing Fall Out  Boy.  Is he still gonna call me?  Will he still IM me?  How will he act around me?  Will he ever come back to me?  I miss him already.  Towards the begging he told me he was scared, but I dont know.  This just really sucks.  Everything I see or hear reminds me of him.  I keep thinking of all the fun I had with him & how happy he made me.  I miss being in his arms where I always felt safe.  I miss his kiss that always made my whole body tingle.  I dont know what to say to him.  How long has he felt this way?  When will I stop crying?  Will it ever be the same again?  I guess i'm gonna go try to sleep until I have to face the reality of tomorrow & days that may follow it.

~*~AsHy~*~