Hello.  i"m on the phone with Tommy, helping him make a blog, so I decided to update myne.  I dont even remember the last time I updated,so hmm, lets see.  Well the other night me & Margo took her das car again & she picked David, Dennis, & Kenny up & I stayed at Tom's house with him!  We chilled & stuff.  No details needs.  ;) hehe.  And Margo & DAvid went back to her house... alone...  haha./ but unfortunalately nothing happened.  In time... in time...  anyways.  then the next day David, Paul, Dennis, Billy, & Jerry left to go to Florida, so Me & Margo had no reason to go out.  So I went & babysitted this lil boy.  he was really cute. Then They all came back from Florida today, aso me & margo were gonna go out tonight, but her damn grandma came in town from Alabama, so she had to go back to her moms  So shes taking her moms car out to see David (he better make it worth it) and I cant go cuz Im at my house & no one will bring me over there.  :(  I'm still gonna try to figure something out.  I might hava a plan, not sure if it'll work though...  Anyways....  I forgot what all else I was gonna say.  But I got this website emailed to me the other day & it had 'kissing games'  I've always wanted to kiss underwater & makeout with an icecube in my mouth, but here are a few of the games that look kinda fun.   Go to www.thekiss.com for more. 

 Get the Gum
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    To play this game, you obviously need a piece of gum... choose a flavor that both partners like.

   One person chews the gum up a little. Then, the other player must kiss the gum chewer and try to get the gum out of their mouth, while the gum chewer tries to keep ahold of the gum! Once the second player gets the gum away, the first player then tries to get the gum back.

   This is a good game to practice using your tongues, and is good if you haven't done much tongue kissing before. It helps you relax a little and get used to using your tongue, putting it in someone else's mouth, and having their tongue in yours.

Secret Word
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    This game is a great one to play over the course of a day, date, or evening.

   To start the game, you and your partner must decide upon a 'code word' (or words). For the duration of the game, whenever someone says that word, you and your partner must kiss.

   For best results, pick a word that will be used somewhat often, but not every sentence. "And", "If", etc. are bad words, because they are used way too often! Depending on what you are doing, the word could be related to your activity. For example, if you are going bowling, the word could be "strike" , "spare" , or even "rented shoes".

   Part of the fun of the game is to not let other people know what you are up to. Let them wonder why you are randomly kissing for no (obvious) reason!

Alright, I think thats enough for tongiht.  I'm out.

~*~AsHy~*~

Tom broke up with me.  I am in complete shock.  I thought we were doing good.  Everyone cept saying how jealous they were of our relationship.  Two more days would have been 2 months.  He said he wasnt ready for a serious relationship.  I said i understood, but I'm not sure if I really do.  I should have asked more questions, but I had to say as little as possible because I didnt want him to hear how hard I was crying.  I feel like I'm going to throw up.  My mouth keeps going dry, but my face stays soaked with tears.  I love him so much.  I dont think he realizes just how much he means to me.  I know I've already lost him for now, but I dont want to lose him forever.  How do I prevent it?  I waited all day for tonight to come cuz I figured he'd get to call me while his aunt & uncle were sleeping.  When he called, hearing his voice made me cry harder. And now Margos playing Fall Out  Boy.  Is he still gonna call me?  Will he still IM me?  How will he act around me?  Will he ever come back to me?  I miss him already.  Towards the begging he told me he was scared, but I dont know.  This just really sucks.  Everything I see or hear reminds me of him.  I keep thinking of all the fun I had with him & how happy he made me.  I miss being in his arms where I always felt safe.  I miss his kiss that always made my whole body tingle.  I dont know what to say to him.  How long has he felt this way?  When will I stop crying?  Will it ever be the same again?  I guess i'm gonna go try to sleep until I have to face the reality of tomorrow & days that may follow it.

~*~AsHy~*~

Last night pretty much just sucked.  I dont know why I was in such a bad mood.  I guess partically cuz I was really tired cuz I had been shopping all day.  Then Erika made me change my clothes cuz she said I looked fat in what I wanted to wear & my mom was being mean & stuff so I was aggravated already.  Then we went to Skyfire & it sucked.  Everyone was being weird.  I kinda just standing alone cuz every on left me, til I saw Karlie & Janine goin to wait for Mel.  So I just chilled with them.  Then Erika & Sarah came back.  I gave a few lapdances to some sexy bitches!!  That was pretty fun... Then We all just kinda sat around taslking. we werent allowed to go outside cuz some dumbass jr high kids broke a window or somehting.  So I was prtty bored.  Erika was having a bad ngiht cuz Robbie wasnt there.  I dont know where Tomw as.  he was chilin with someof his friends.  They were pretty weird.  She me, Sarah, Erika, & Ami were feelin horny & had no one to help us out, so we decided to help each other.  So we all started kissin each other.  That was lots of fun.  Then we talked to Steven for a few minutes.  Hes cool.  but Kevin & brian are quitting the band after Sweet & Sour Fest.  Thats sad.  But I'm surethey'll still be good!  Spo by then it was already like 10:15ish, & I was leaving at 11.  Then Tom came over by me & we chilled & talked with some of his friends.  Then In Media Res started playing, so we went & sat inside.  We were sittin a few rows in front of his friends & we were kissin & stuff & the whole time he was just looking at his friends. I dunno. It was just kinda weird.  It seemed as if he would have rathered be with them, even though he was witht hem the whole night & I was leaving in 20 minutes.  I dunno.  So then we were just sittin in the back & I fell asleep.  Then Ami came & told me her dad was there, so I had to leave.  I dunno. it just seemed like something was wrong.  So then we left, came home, me & erika watched SLC Punk & fell asleep.  Thats it.  Fun stuff, huh!?

~*~AsHy~*~

Dont you just love the music when u open my blog!! I know I do!!  I know a few others that will appreciate me representin too!!  haha!!  Damn I love the OC!  New episode Wednesday!! Whoop Whoop!!

Moving on...

Yes! Yesterday was lots & lots of fun!!  Paul & Tom picked me up & we went to their house!  We watched Nick & Eric play videogames for a while. Then Paul made Tom make him 2 PB & Js! lol.  It was great! Hes just everyones lil bitch!!  hehe.  but I love him!  And we watched Pirates of the Caribbean.  Quite an intresting movie!!  Hehe.  Umm and we did some laundry! haha.  Paul was quite the funny man! /he got in the bed nakie!  That was pretty intresting too!  We watched this really weird cartoon too.  They had this messed up kid that was really cool! Shes my new role model!!  They were at the like Mexican amusment park or something& there was this ride where they were riding in a pinata & there was sticks beating them.  Well while the rest were trying to dodge the sticks, she was catching all the candy!! She was so cool!  And the rest of the time we just chilled &stuff.  It was lots of fun!  I love him so much!! I miss him already!!  heh

Well the rest of this weekend sucked. Didnt really do anything.  Just sat around & watched tv.  It was good tv though!!  That new MTV show, I want a famous face, is pretty messed up.  I dont think I'd ever get plastic surgery to be gin with, but especally not to look like my favorite celeberty! What I have might not be the best, but I'm fine with it & i'm not gonna change it.  If someone dont like it thats their problem not mine!  I wouldnt change myself like that for anyone.

Welll anyways. I think I'm gonna go watch a movie or some tv & do some French homework. SO bi bi!!

~*~AsHy~*~

I got to see my baby again today!!  :D  We went to the Italian-Irish parade!! It was lots of fun!!  We chilled in the car for a lil while while we waited for the parade to get close.  That was fun!  But he kept lickin me so I was all sloobery!!  hehe.  Then we went & watched the parade.  & we saw a japanese restaurant call 'Tea Garden'  lol.  Its close enough!!  And there was these straight up ganstas across the street from us!! They were cool!!  We caught a bunch of fruits & vegitables! And lots of other stuff!  Tom caught me some flowers!  I love him soo much!! hehe. I had lots & lots of fun!! I love being with him!!!

~*~AsHy~*~

Happy Birthday Margo!!!

I thought today was gonna suck, cuz I wanted to go to WET fest, but Tom told me he couldnt go, so I was all ahhh!!  Cuz It just wasnt worth $12 cuz I just wanted to see Surface.  But its alll good!!  Cuz I got to go to Fountainblea State Park with Tom & his family!!  I love him more & more everyday!  We had fun.  We goofed around in the parking lot for a lil while listenin to some ppls 'Latino' music ( I say it was Jamacian, but he claims it was latino)  and then we played baseball!! I never knew I was kinda good!!  lol  I was on a team with Nick & Micheal & Tom was on a team with Eric.  & Mrs. Kelly was catcher & Mr. Jerry was pitcher.  We won!!! hahaah!!!  It was lots of fun!!  and tomorrow I get to go to the Italian-Irish parade with them!! Fun Fun!!! hehe. 

~*~AsHy~*~

       Oh man oh man!!! I miss MY Tom soooo much!! Ahhh!! Im gonna go INSANE!!!  I'm goin CRAZY!!!!  But he said he thinks he gets to go to Margos party tomorrow!!! yay yay yay!!!  hehheeh!!!  I'm so happy now!!!  I love him sooo much!!  :D  & the OC returns this wednesday!!!  ::HAPPY HUMPY DANCE!!::  hehe!! 

       On a not so happy note...  last night completely SUCKED nuts!!  Wyld Stalyans suck!!!  They are a cover band that ruin classics!!  and they think they're hot shit!! They cant even come up with their own name!! thats SOOOO Bill & Ted's!!!  Any ways... they are the only thing about last night that sucked...  Dennis was being a complete ass to me!!  SCREW HIM IN THE BUTT!!  I told him to go cuz I missed him, so what does he do??? Ignores me, give me dirty looks, and tells me to fuck off...  I'll remember that!!!

      but on a much higher note... A Seperate Skyline kicked ass... as did Kamaskazi (even though they only got to play one song & had kevin replace Ricky cuz he was really sick) and Vox Causa kiked ass too!!  Kevins a really good drummer!! 

      Hmmm.  What else to say...  I ate a coconut today at pe that a karite dude broke with his hand!!  lol.  But yeah... I dunno what else to say... so i'll just update after this weekend cuz margos party is gonna kick!!!

~*~AsHy~*~